Wow! That's pretty much what I keep saying over and over again right now while others are getting prepared for the super bowl and putting the last finishing touches on their finger food for the game I'm here, at home, at the computer, Listening to Christina Perri, and writing down the fact that I HAD MY VERY FIRST SPIRITUAL AWAKENING TODAY! It happened this morning at church, during communion, when I was waiting for the cup to come and Pastor Larry was praying and saying "lets take this time and think of Jesus".. BAM!! It happened! MY SPIRITUAL awakening!!!
So I was bowing my head looked down and noticed the shirt I was wearing reminded me of someone. Someone in my past but still so much in my present! I started to cry while I remembered this person. As I prayed and shed a few tears I put myself in this persons shoes for the very first time in the almost year we have even know each other. And I realized, I blew it! I really messed up man! "If only I knew what I knew now!" ... You think I'd be asking myself questions like this. But I wasn't. I wasn't second guessing if this was truly the life Jesus wants for me. I'm in in! I'm in this life and I'm doing this! I'm doing thing I thought I could never do or say to people about Christ. I am still weary and doubtful of my life at times, "do I really have a good enough voice to sing for the women's retreat?" I mean wow! "Do I really know what I'm doing when I think I might like something or someone and then come to realize the Lord grabs me by my hand and says "nope not this time darling". Ive literally heard Jesus say that to me! Today was that day! Today is a happy day. But today is a sad day.
